Him

Okay well I have this friend and I’ve liked him for a very long time, about three to four years now. He still doesn’t get why even after I told him many times over and over again. I wish he could see how much it hurts me to not speak or see him in any way at all. Anyways he has this friend who lives closer to him than me and she gets to see him more than I do, which honestly makes me jealous of that fact. One day she came over to his house and they did things with eachother. When I heard about it, I pretended that i didn’t care, but deep down inside I was burning up and wanted to die or something there. I wanted to hate him for knowing how I felt yet doing these things with this girl that he’s not even with to begin with. But, even as I try, i can’t hate him. Now he’s changed, we barely talk anymore...I know its because of that day he had with her. She took him away from me and later I fell into a week long depression. I know its stupid to feel this way over a guy but, I really like him, I felt that he was the one that would be mine and mine alone. I was wrong, but I know I can’t have my way so thats it. This whole thing may seem stupid, but I really don’t care.